Sunday, November 29, 2009
Saturday, November 28, 2009
I wonder "What the hell?" I simply do not get the deaths of Pooldad's and my first spouses.
When talking to my [step]son about his Mom's death he said that she had been struggling for years and he felt her battles were too great for her to handle. He said that he was relieved that she was finally at peace and in a better place. He also told me that she accidently overdosed.
Huh? What? Not the O/D - but the better place? How unhappy was this woman? WHY was she so miserable? What were her battles?
Then talking to JR he related that SR didn't, in fact, overdose he had died from a heart attack, at 38, brought on by years of heavy alcohol abuse. How do you die at such a young age from that? How can you be so miserable that you have consumed that amount of alcohol, by that age, to cause your own demise? What the hell is going on?
I may be overthinking this [
I don't usually go over the whys and the wherefores of death. Goodness knows I have been to my share of funerals of very close friends and beloved family members, but these two deaths are bothering me.
I know I can't bring them back and our life for the past decade and a half has been fraught with a lot of battles, but I swear I never wished these two dead. Now that they are gone and I know I won't be getting anymore phonecalls, nasty letters or a vile visit - but I don't find myself assured by this. It is almost as I wish the phone would ring or a court order would show up on the door. Heck, child support payments would be welcome if they would just not be dead. Does that make sense?
After SR and I were divorced he called me one day and was being particularly pricky - but I just laughed and made a joke about child support. He laughed back and said "That is what I like about you Skippy - you have never lost your sense of humor. No matter what I do you can still laugh." I responded that I had to laugh, what else was I going to do?
I think what bothers me the most is I don't see the humor here, at all. Not that I should [honestly] - but everyone that is in our lives [for reals] seem to think this is some kind of great karma for all these two put us through the past 15 years.
I don't see it.
Friday, November 27, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
HI TADPOLES! Happy Thanksgiving!
Despite circum[lupus]stances beyond my control I find myself incredibly grateful this year and for that I have you all to thank. Seriously gang - how I get through the day is a wonder to me - but y'all make it easier and for that? I thank you. I worship you, I want to kiss and hug everyone of you and I want Yvo to marry JR [hey Yvo? You started that!]....but since all of this is not possible...I will simply post my thanks this way:
I will start with my two oldest tadpoles [and before they berate me in comments for that - let me clarify - they read my old blog, not that they are OLD, jeesh...but I know you two and you would do it, giggle]:
Marni - Hey Miss Southern! You have the greatest southern accent - it's a Georgia thing, I know, but I adore hearing your voice on the phone. Your comments are always apropos, your emails lift me and help in words immeasurable. You have been here for it all haven't you? You know the whole story. Thank you my friend for being my friend, no matter what.
Yvo - My true New Yorker. I couldn't be more maternal of a tadpole if you were one of my own offspring and I am not even [quite] old enough to be your mother. You have, also, been here through it all from the old blog to this one and you know - and you let me know. Slap me down about head cheese girlie, I can take it. It may be the internet, but it would be a cold day for me and my family if you were to go away. I can't tell you how much you mean to me.
And for the rest of you verterbrates [I know a vet if you need care, hey!] I love you too -
Linda - I have been reading your blog forever but was never compelled to truly comment until your Mother became ill. I would have wanted a friendship forged on different circumstances - but I am fortunate it happened regardless. No one makes me laugh like you do - I ask and you deliver. Grateful? Thankful? I don't think there are words that can describe what you have given me in the past few months.
Christopher - [Jo and Jasper] What can I say buddy? I was one of your readers from back when - and it has been my absolute pleasure to see you grow, become engaged, buy a home, marry Jo and have Jasper. It is presumptious of me but I feel like an internet Grandma to your family but your blog writing and comments bring me more hope and joy than you will ever know.
Waiter? You are just the awesome. You make me miss waiting tables, hee, but better? Your love for you family is unrivaled and some of the best stuff I read on a daily basis. Your advice is always taken. And your quizzes? Go man!
Rudee - Sage woman. I think you absorb the wisdom of the ages while knitting - you are astute, to the point and one of the brightest women I know. I always smile when I see I have a notice of a comment from you - because I know you are either going to make me laugh or slap me back in place. Both are welcome and I thank you for that.
Diane - I couldn't even try to be as funny as you. I don't think anyone could, but dayum - your posts relate life in such a way I tend to think "Hey - get out of my head." And in your busy life you take the time to come over and tadpole your way into the comments with something kind or funny.
Gizmo - What can I say? You are the sweetest person I have met on the 'net. Your love for your friends, family and all God's creatures is so inspiring. You are a wonderful supporter of me in my life with Lupus and you have rewarded me in ways I can't begin to thank you for. But know I am truly grateful.
Ellen - you are a newer tadpole and a gifted, welcome addition. Your blog inspires me and your comments to me are always helpful and spot on. I am so glad you come around and that I have your blog to wander over to for the beauty and serenity your artwork provides.
Amy - What words can I use? Publish a book of your photos before I steal them all and become a gazillionaire!!! You can write one word and post a pic' and my whole day is made - I love seeing/reading the trials and tribulations of Thomas and Clara as it makes me remember my kids when they were babies [but yours are SO much cuter] and you are always so supportive as a tadpole. I am so happy in the scheme of things that you find a minute to come by and say hi in the comments. I always leave with a smile after seeing or reading anything you post.
Jeannie - Thank you for always taking a moment to read and comment. I take everything you say to heart as you know and understand. You are my sweetheart tadpole.
Kathy - I adore reading your blog and you are so kind to come around and comment with your incredibly busy schedule. Your heartache these past few weeks has become mine and I wish I could be there for you and pour a cup a tea and give a hug. You are such a welcome addition to the tadpoles. Bless you.
Yum Yucky - Just the best laugh of the day and a beautiful family to back it up. I love your blog and you are right there when I need a laugh or a piece of advice. Too great and I thank you.
Life in the Mom Lane - I couldn't forget you - ever faithful tadpole. You and me are the Moms aren't we? You are true to yourself and let me know when I have done right, done wrong and when I need to just forgive myself. Thank you so much for being my friend. Now, exactly what IS your name? :)
and Mare - you are an inspiring woman and a gift that comes around once and a while with something I need at that time. You know your stuff and you share which is so much appreciated. Hugs!
The past few weeks/months have been hard on me, but not a single one of you has let me down. You have all been there and helped me along. I will say it again, it just may be the internet to the rest of the world, but you all ARE my friends and I count on you to get through my long, lonely days. I hope that isn't too much to ask.
For your support, advice and love - I thank you.
Thankful for my Tadpoles.
I love you.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Monday, November 23, 2009
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Unfortunately, that is probably the kindest thing I can say about this teapot. And that makes me sad, because, honestly? I really, really wanted to like it.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
And he had his own pony. For a while. Then he ate it.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Yep! I found an actual person at the Squirrel's school to hear me out regarding the tadpole/worm fiasco.
He knew nothing of the situation [as he shouldn't-it is just one class in the scheme of his day] but he asked me tell him about the entire scenario. At the end I apologized for taking so long with the story and I said I knew it sounded absurd, but....
"Don't apologize. One day Mrs. Skippy I am going to write a book. I am pretty sure this will be chapter 11. Thank you."
I knew something in my life would be published someway or another. :)
PS - Rudee made a good point. I have to say the Principal is a good guy and wasn't blowing me off - he will try to help. I don't know if it will help and at this point I don't care, but I am sorry if I gave the wrong impression. He will try.
Monday, November 16, 2009
Black worms or mosquito larvae.
Mosquito larvae are almost useless to her experiment so Black Worms it is.
Guess how much the lil' wigglers cost?
EIGHT DOLLARS A WORM.
[Why, yes. YES I am actually SCREAMING at you.]
We need FIFTY.
Did you miss that? EIGHT DOLLARS A WORM
[throat getting sore].
This is just about my dinner budget for one night for one worm? Holy god.
Oh, and the Veterinarian that denied the original project was worried about who would take care of the frogs [who would be grown beyond tadpoles] once her project was over. The "cruel and inhumane" part of the denial remember?
I didn't think we were releasing lion cubs into the wilds of the Serengeti with no skills....they are EFFFFFFFFING FROGS. I am pretty damn sure they can figure out how to survive at our local pond.
I seriously think I need throat spray now because I am STILL SCREAMING.
We will now have GOLD STAR worms. 400 EFFFFFFING DOLLARS worth of worms.
My food budget for one month.
As I alluded to in the title - that Vet must be getting a kickback. I am almost sure it is from the website that we are buying these worms from.
Anyone want to chime in on how STUPID this is? And bet your boots I am going to be all over the net warning people away from this Veterinarian.
Two EFFFFFFFFINGS and a STUPID have now rendered me mute from screaming. You are welcome. :)
Please do NOT tell me to change the project or not buy the worms or whatnot - I have tried everything - the year is fading away and she needs to start this project sooner then later and she has to pick now. I am not an indulgent parent - the school is forcing my hand. I am angry and I have no one to listen to how ridiculous this all is.
I am going over to visit Linda and look at her sunsets at Myrtle Beach. 'Tis about the only thing calming to me right now. Well the pics and the drink she taught me to make ::winking at Linda::
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Remember this post about the Eldest's science project for ISC? Well.....
After all the research the Eldest did, presenting her proposal, jumping through the hoops to find a Veternarian and ordering the tadpoles and pond water it has been decided by the committee that the project is DENIED.
Light therapy on tadpoles?
Denied? You ask?
Whatever could it be Skippy? [feel the sarcasm people]
Seems the committee's Veterinarian feels that the project presents [and no, I am not kidding] "Cruel and unusual punishment to a vertebrate."
.............I'll wait why you pick your chin up off the floor..............
They have decided that she must use an invertebrate for this project, i.e. worms or crayfish or some such, who knows.
Really committee? Honestly. Really? It isn't like she is doing invasive surgery on a dog or a cat. They are TADPOLES for goodness sakes. Right?
Who knows? Now I have 50 tadpoles and a couple of gallons pond water headed my way - which doesn't upset me as much as now my daughter is behind the game because she has to start over.
The world is TOO politically correct anymore.
These were quite the popular Halloween accessory.
Dyed my hair red in honor of Eva. Best pic' I could find. Shows you my family's photo taking abilities doesn't it? [Or lack thereof]
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
My first free appliance was the most points and it took us a bit of time to accumulate them [I think it was the toilet paper consumption that sent us over the top]- but here it is.
A food processor and blender - AWESOME! It is smoothie land tadpoles! And pesto!
Then today Pooldad picked up this cutie wafflemaker. Squeee!
[Donkey -from Shrek- "And in the morning I'm makin' waffles!" heehee]:
Saturday, November 7, 2009
I ended up on Facebook a few weeks ago in a very roundabout way, but I have to say I am happy I am there now.
I talk to my kids so much more than before. My friends that are in far flung locations keep me updated on their adventures and share their friends [bonus] and I have found so many of my high school and college classmates - it is amazing!
Plus there is this lil' game on there called Bejeweled [thanks a lot Linda!] that helps me while away a few minutes of my day. And ignore my laundry [thanks Linda :)!]
All in all I have to say it is a pretty neat place to be.
Friday, November 6, 2009
I understand England has more stringent gun laws than the "Happy to have an AK-47" US of A.
Fort Hood yesterday and now an Orlando, FL office building today?
My country is out of control and I seriously am considering becoming an ex-pat.
I live in VA - home to part of the DC sniper's rampage [I remember trying to tell a kindergartener that there would be no recess that day and he replied "Because they haven't caught the bad man with the gun, right Mrs. G?" I wanted to weep.] and then the VA Tech massacre.
Ask me how many people we knew and how scared we were.
I need to understand this.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
This week I was contacted by a nice gentleman from the company offering me the opportunity to review one of Ms. Ray's cookware products. Before agreeing I perused their site and was amazed by the style, colors [orange saute' pans? who knew?] and unique craftsmanship of some of the pieces. A good example is the teapot pictured above.
I don't know what I will be reviewing but I am anxious to try whatever is sent my way. Give the store a check out and I will be back with the review as soon as I am done using it in the "Skippy Test Kitchen".
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
They have been in clinical trials for a few years [hey! no one told me] and if approved [please] it will be the first drug approved for the treatment of Lupus in over 50 years.
Oh Happy Day! The company is putting in for approval now but it will be the end of next year before they know if they have received it.
It would be really nice to know there is finally a choice that doesn't have the side effects of the steroids, other drugs or the ineffectiveness of OTC painkillers.
All my Lupus pals hang in there! It seems they may have a major breakthrough for the pain and the flares.
I feel better already! :)
Monday, November 2, 2009
She is an incredibly lovely young lady who keeps her spirits up everyday knowing that without a new transplant she may not live much longer. Her lung capacity is now below 16%. She is on oxygen full time but still manages to live her life, enjoy her family and friends and encourage everyone around her.
Since she is basically home all the time she loves to receive mail. I am hoping that one or two of you would be kind enough to drop her a note or a postcard to lift her spirits. I don't think she will mind me posting her address [as it is on her blog] and hopefully she will receive a bit more mail from tadpoles.
What do you say gang? Can you spare a few minutes and a stamp to drop her a line?
Her address is:
217 Third Avenue
New Wesminster [it is written this way on her blog - but I don't know if it is "Westminster"
I would really appreciate any happiness you can send her way. Thanks tadpoles.
PS - From the US it is .98 cents for a letter or postcard - although I know I have a few Canadian readers - I don't know what the postage is from your province.
2. Your hair? I just cut it all off last week - it is short, spiky and going gray
3. Your mother? Terminally ill
4. Your father? Deceased
5. Your favorite food? Thanksgiving dinner
6. Your dream last night? Something involving super glue
7. Your favorite drink? Green bottled cokes
8. Your goal? To survive my illness
9. What room are you in? Family Room
10. Your hobby? Swapping on swap-bot.com
11. Your fear? Exposed heights
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? In an RV heading to warm weather
13. Where were you last night? Right here
14. Something you aren't? A liar
15. Muffins? Carrot Nut from Mimi's
16. Wish list item? Braces for Wallene for free
17. Where did you grow up? VA
18. Last thing you did? Used my inhaler because I had an asthma attack this morning
19. What are you wearing? Sweat pants and a sweatshirt
20. Your TV? On/GMA
21. Your pets? The best ever
22. Your friends? Special
23. Your life? Lonely, but fulfilling
24. Your mood? Chilly [I am cold tadpoles]
25. Missing someone? Very much
26. Vehicle? One
27. Something you're not wearing? Perfume
28. Your favorite store? Michaels
29. Your favorite color? Yellow
30. When was the last time you laughed? This morning
31. Last time you cried? Last night
32. Your best friend? Pooldad
33. One place that I go over and over? The Bathroom [Hey, it has it's own heater]
34. One person who emails me regularly?My daughters' schools
35. Favorite place to eat? Glory Days or Macaroni Grill
I'd like to pass this along to:
Marni at It's a Pug's Life
Waiter at Waiterextraordinaire
Linda at RVVagabonds
Rudee at Knitting Nurse
Kathy at kathy's kampground kapers
Gail over At the Farm
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Wallene hit it big - she counted 179 pieces!
Our pretty devil