Wednesday, February 29, 2012

It All Tastes Strange Anway

I have no appetite.

Problem with not having an appetite is you don't eat - which leads to the niggly little problems of weight loss and vitamin deficiencies.

You know you're too thin when the doctor jokes that he needs a child size blood pressure cuff. And then actually goes and gets one.

You know me. I love to eat.  Eating is a passion with me but lately I haven't had one iota of desire to eat or drink anything.  Pooldad will graciously buy me anything, no matter the time of day or the price and he will instantly prepare anything I say I might eat - but nothing is doing it for me.

He forced me into a grocery list today and the poor man just had to laugh at me.

It included - strawberry ice cream, orange jell-o, chocolate pudding, green grapes, mint milano cookies, french bread pizza, ginger ale, cranberry juice and fried clams.

Over the span of the day I managed 1/2 container of orange jello-o, 1 scoop of strawberry ice cream, a strawberry popsicle, 3 bites of a delicious hamburger he had made for himself [at that point I got sick-yeah he was REAL hungry after that] and 1 cookie.

Even the hospital wasn't doing it and the food is good. Goodness knows they give you enough of it.  The poor woman who runs the operation saw I wasn't eating and on her next go round to the rooms she promised to make me anything I wanted.  I asked for a tuna sandwich and soup.  She brought it for our next meal and try as I might I just couldn't stomach it.  It was like letting down you loving grandma. I felt like crap.

This morning I am trying a cherry jell-o, but it isn't doing it.  They told me to drink Ensure and Boost, but it tastes like liquid chalk to me so I can't.  I have tried, but have just thrown it up.

Here's another thing about me - if I get sick on something I eat I won't eat it again.  I became sick on tomato sauce one time and it took me 20 years to be able to stand the smell and another 5 to actually eat it. Marrying an Italian helped that along I think. hee  But I don't want to get sick on any of my favorites because they may  *poof* right out of rotation.

I know it sounds like a weird thing to complain about - but not being allowed to eat something [in my case, salt] is a heck of a lot different than not be able to eat at all.  And it is frustrating me.

It is time to start my day and get dressed.  As we say now "Skippy gives a whole new meaning to the word 'skinny jeans'."



Tony Van Helsing said...

This is terrible, food is one of the most enjoyable things ever. You have no idea how sorry I feel for you. But you always seem to remain cheerful and laugh it off. You are a credit to the human race.

life in the mom lane said...

My guess is that your meds may be killing your appetite.... hey if you can get a spoonful of this & that down- do that! Whatever it takes!! Hang in there! {HUGS}

Biz said...

Hey Skippy - I kinda figured you might be in the hospital since you hadn't posted in so long. I am so sorry you have to go through this.

I know what its like not having an appetite - while Tony could choke down maybe one Ensure a day, he didn't have a taste for anything. And you know how I love to cook!

Hope your name is on the top of the transplant list!! BIG HUGS! Biz

Anonymous said...

Hi Skippy, I'm sorry to hear that you cannot find apetite to eat anything - can imagine you're frustrated. To eat should be enjoyable...Big hugs my friend!


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Rebecca said...

hugs sweetie i hate you aren't feeling well wish i could help

Juli said...

Don't worry.

I'm eating enough lately for the both of us. :)

Susan Flett Swiderski said...

I'm so sorry. I don't even have my usual smart ass comment. Just I'm sorry. I hate that you're going through this.

Jeannie said...

Eating just isn't easy when nothing seems to taste good or sit right but you obviously need food. It would be a pain, but what about tiny portions of many different things? So maybe a sandwich would take four days to eat. An ounce of soup at a time. A baby carrot. An oatmeal cookie. Just a small plate in reach to munch as the day passes instead of meals. Just a bite at a time and no more but each tv commercial break is your cue to try. And a sip of juice or gingerale or something.
Don't make me come down there!

Rudee said...

I won't make appetite recommendations here, but I can share them with you if you want them. Just email me to let me know.

I'm so sorry to hear you're not feeling well and I'm keeping you in my prayers.

colenic said...

Hugs sweetie!!
I totally know what you mean about not eating again after you get sick on a food...I can't eat tuna fish anymore....I think I will pop over and bring something that will be irresistable for you!! I wish...know that I am thinking of you ya!

Redhead said...

Being a pretty recent follower of your blog, I had no idea you were going through all this illness. I have no words of wisdom, just hugs and good thoughts.

Confessions from the Hairdresser said...

Sorry to hear the transition back into life is a little rough, I hope more than anything that your appetite picks up again really soon.

Teresa said...

big hugs coming you way. sorry that the food doesn't taste good to you. probably the medications.

take it a bite at a time - each one is a small success.

Greenmare said...

my poor baby! I'd make you an apple pie if I could. or maybe just some nice chicken soup?

Knitty said...

Skipping by to say that I hope you are feeling a bit better. I would gladly arrange a weight transplant from me to you if possible. We could both be healthier. Hugs to you!

Anonymous said...

I hope you are enjoying your daughter this weekend!! Hugs!