Day Four: Name someone you have to forgive.
I don't have anybody. Honestly. There is not a single person alive or dead that I need to forgive for something they did or I think they did to me.
Because I am not one to hold a grudge. Anymore. And that is what needing to forgive someone for something is all about - a grudge. Well, perhaps I haven't had anything so terribly heinous happen to me in my life that I really do need to forgive someone or it is just that I let go of hard feelings towards others a long time ago.
I have a good reason - I call it my "Get Out of Jail Free Card". The Doctors call it "Lupus".
With Lupus it is important not to become stressed or upset because doing so can cause a flare [it is one of the ways to do it] and no one wants to flare - least of all me. You can become terribly ill and end up in the hospital if you are not careful.
I took this knowledge and applied it to my own life. Not so much because I wanted to but because I had to and Tadpoles? It is like a gift. No more arguing with family members, no more "he said, she said" kind of fights in my world, no more disappointments from friends - I just get to say "Sorry, I do love you, but I am stepping away now because I can't be in the middle of this melee anymore. I have to think of my health." It works like a charm - because no one wants to continue to fight with the Loopy in the corner, right? They don't want to think they are going to be the cause of the sick chick in the hospital.
I don't know if I am explaining this well, but I learned to let it go. Other peoples' actions have no bearing on me. I am an adult - and as much as something that someone else has done may effect me, moreso than others, I am still me and ultimately I am the one taking care of me. Walking away from volatile or heart wrenching situations is what I [have to] do now.
Did any of this make sense? Hope so! Y'all have a great Thursday.