Friday, April 13, 2012

Proof We Really Can Laugh At Anything

Pooldad and I went to my oncologist/hematologist on Wednesday and without going into great detail the news is not good.  In fact, it is so "not good" that I have had a hard time trying to even find the words to tell my family and my friends.  We have only told Pooldad's bosses and his parents.

I don't really have the strength to do much more than leave comments for y'all [trying to stay upbeat when I do] and post about mundane stuff like Wallene's lunch. I hope you can forgive my vagueness. It really is the best I can do right now.

But, just to give you proof that we are trying to stay upbeat, I will tell you a short story of what happened after we came home from the doctor's with the news.

I took a dose of pain meds early in the evening and was just hangin' out with Pooldad when I suddenly had that familiar nauseous feeling.  I excused myself to run to the powder room in time to begin my ritual dry heaving.  The meds work great and I am getting amazing abs from throwing up nothing [I am not kidding about the ab thing either, not that I suggest anyone try this], but. . .really?  I try not to take the meds because they do make me throw up. I often go 4, 5, 6 days without having to take them but sometimes the pain is too intense.  I just have to weigh if it is worth throwing up a few times a night to get some relief.

Part way through I thought I would call Pooldad to come in with me.  I needed him to rub my back, which was cramping.  It is the only time I will let anyone near me when I am sick because who needs company at a time like that? [Hint:  Not me!]

As he approached the bathroom he asked "So, what are we doing?"

I smiled and said "Come on in here honey.  We'll practice for chemotherapy together."

I don't think he was expecting quite that response [considering I had been crying all afternoon], but we both fell out laughing. Hard.

Maybe you had to be there or maybe you have been through this and understand. . .

He turned me around, folded me up in his arms, and whispered in my ear "And that is why I love you so much sweetheart."

Take care Tadpoles.  We'll see ya' on flipside, I am sure of it.
Love, Skippy

26 comments:

Shelly said...

You've got a keeper of a husband, that's for sure! I am praying for you in this time. You are a strong woman and you have all of us rooting for you!

Marni said...

My heart is breaking... and yet so light because you have such a wonderful support system.

Hugs, honey. Let me know if I can do anything.

becca said...

hugs

colenic said...

Hugs to you...sometimes a sense of humor is the only thing that helps you stare down the demon and not fall even further into the darkness of the disease...know that I am thinking of you often and your family and that I am here if you need anything...

Julie said...

Not that i have ever been in your position, but coming from having a kid with learning disabilities and all we have been thru, i have learned that a sense of humour keeps it together when everything else around you is falling apart. Sometimes there are "in" jokes that you can have with some people and they crack laughing with you while others around you are wondering "what on earth.........????"

It would be nice to stay closer and be able to come over and help you out, but till then, hugs from us and take care

Rudee said...

Oh, dear. I'm so sorry to hear this news. You are loved here, Skippy. Just so you know that while your keeper of a husband is literally holding you up, you're being held up virtually, too.

Zofran will be your friend.

mybizzykitchen.com said...

I am so happy you could find something to laugh about, even with everything that is going on.

I am praying for you Skip! Know that I am sending big virtual hugs your way too!

Susan Flett Swiderski said...

Thanks for sharing with us. Our hearts are breaking for you, but I know you're gonna be okay. Attitude and having a good support system matter so much, and you've got both of those things covered in spades. Keep on looking for those bright spots, Skippy. Some days, it'll be harder to find them than others, but they'll always be there. And our love and prayers will always be there with you, too. (You can even borrow my "hat" if you want!)

Tracy said...

How is it that you have created such a life on this blog that I feel like you are my next door neighbor and friend. My heart breaks for all you have to suffer through.

Hugs from Oklahoma.

sapphireblue said...

Big hugs!!

Patty said...

YOU take care Skippy.
I'll be thinking about you.

Thisisme. said...

Oh my dear, dear friend. Words fail me - I felt so unhappy when I read this post. I've just sent you an e-mail, which I obviously did before I caught up with this post. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Please take care xxx Like the others, I really feel that I know you so well.

devium said...

Having only just stumbled upon your blog in the wee hours of last night and reading many pages (back to September 2011) I can only sending internet (Canadian!) hugs.
Through a family friend who recent beat breast cancer (take that you ugly disease!!) a sense of humour and an awesome support system is great!! It's the little things you gotta find to laugh at.
Keep strong, you are an amazing lady and when you wish to tell us more details we will be here with open arms to give you gigantic internet hugs!

Becca said...

*big hugs* I'm here if you need to talk... prayers are going up for you and your family. Keep up the good humor, beautiful; it is true that laughter is the best medicine, and a good attitude can carry you through just about anything. You're in my thoughts. *more hugs*

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Kathy's Klothesline said...

Sending you a great big hug, one to Pooldad, too. Praying for you and thinking of you, often. A sense of humor always helps!

Juli said...

(((Hugs)))

I'm a crappy pen pal for not visiting sooner. :( I can not imagine what you are going through, but I know you have the support and love you need to weather it.

We have a friend (like family) with Parkinson's. He has been checking off his bucket list for some time now. He is in clinical trials for some new thing, and he's being vague about it. He also moved up his trip to fly a jet from next year to this year, saying he "doesn't think it can wait". I am so trilled for him that this is how he's choosing to live his life, but I have to swallow that lump in my throat every time I think about it.

Know I am thinking of you. :)

Tessa said...

Skippy, my eyes are filled with tears for what you must be going through. I've been so selfish on my blog, always posting about my problems and you leaving the most upbeat and encouraging messages. And now you need encouragement and I am lost for words. You are so brave my friend, hang in there, your sense of humor and close family and friends will sustain you as you need it. Wish I was closer but please know I love you and you are constantly in my thoughts and prayers.

Knitty said...

I wish I had something hilarious to say right now. Will you accept a hug and love instead?

Confessions from the Hairdresser said...

I don't know what to say! Uhm... ....

Confessions from the Hairdresser said...

No, wait, that wasn't right, SUPPORT! I'm supposed to offer SUPPORT!

I'm bad in situations like this, I get rattled too easily.

Mostlygrocery said...

Honey deserves some serious kudos the way he's showing his support for you Skippy! Keep the humor up, you'll continue to smile more and less crying, can't do much about it missy. I'm glad you have a very great support system. Feel blessed you are around those who love you.

-Paul

www.mostlygrocery.com

ellen abbott said...

I read this I did. I thought I left some love and support here for you. I wish I could make it better.

Teresa - in the Middle Side of Life said...

:(

but... would that comment rank right up there with my comment to ron that he doesn't have a leg to stand on? :)

of everyone that i know, you can 'chin up' with the best of them.

praying for you. drop me a PM.

Mystic Mud said...

BIG ((hugs)), and so much love, and many prayers for you and yours.

The Writer said...

you are cool. keep fighting lady!