As much as I hated to write the previous post I thought it only honest to share what is happening and what is going to happen with you all. I wasn't intentionally vague because I don't want you to know all the details. I left out a lot of the details because I am scared. Scared that if I type everything out in black and white, line by line, it will be even more real. I hope you understand that simply the knowledge I hold in my head is more than real enough right now. For me, for my husband, for everyone. Trust me on this. :)
I wanted to thank you all, truly everyone, for your supportive emails and comments. I don't know if you realize just how much you buoyed my spirits with your heartfelt words. Mostly tho', I am so happy that you all know me well enough to know I want to laugh. I want to smile and Tadpoles? You guys are really, really good at that! I am not surprised, of course, but it so reassuring to laugh, laugh hard and laugh long with my friends. I have gone back to read them many times, as I am sure I will in the future, because they make me smile. And I want to smile, regardless. I so appreciate it. Thank you again.
Someone said that I must be feeling better because I was leaving such chatty comments and long emails. It isn't that I feel better as much as it is the easiest way for me to connect and keep in contact with you all. This is especially important to me now since I don't know when I won't be able to do it in the future. I think it also has to do with all the nervous energy I have. I am able to expend some of it by "chatting" with you all without physically exhausting myself. Notice I didn't say mentally? I think my writing speaks for itself in that area. heehee
With a very happy heart and a good day's sleep I decided it was time to buy some new, dressier clothing that fit. I do love my new jeans, but they aren't what I like to wear to wear to church or to a few of the appointments I have to go to. That's just me, but I have more confidence when I feel I am dressed appropriately for the occasion. Besides, I don't need my skirt slipping to the floor during Communion. Wal Mart was more than enough for me. ;)
I knew I didn't have too much time in the mall to shop so I took Wallene to expedite. I love the clothing [from the misses department!! woohoo!] she picked out today. I don't think she wants her Momma bedazzled anymore than her Momma wants to be bedazzled :D. We were having such a blast with only one small hiccup. It took a long time to locate my size. Either the style didn't come in a 2 [the woman's version of a junior's 1] or the few pairs of pants, dresses or skirts they did order in were already sold. :( I saw oodles of my normal size but it took forever to find anything worth trying on now. She prevailed tho' and I now have a beautiful pair of flared white dress pants matched with a black and white polka dot shell. She also found a cute, white lace cotton dress, lined, with a taupe jacket. The jacket might go back because I think the white dress deserves a bit more pop of color, don't you? My eye has really been drawn to this season's orange explosion. It is not a color I ever thought to buy myself but, next to yellow, it has to be the happiest color you can wear. Yes, I think an orange jacket, brown belt/shoes and orange/brown accent jewelry will work nicely. [Bored yet? Sorry!]
You would have been proud of Wallene because when she noticed me perusing the $5 clearance rack of sweaters in Macy's she took immediate action. She forcibly removed me from the area saying "No. NO Mom. You have enough Mom. Move away Momma." I argued [okay I whined, but who's counting?] that they had my size, but she would not be deterred. She stated that sweaters fit everyone and I had enough at home that I could layer when it became chilly again. But, but...but! C'mon! $5? In Macy's? It was painful to do but I promise I did not buy a single one [or four].
I know this isn't earth shattering or life changing, but it was fun for us. We took our time, window shopped, sprayed perfume [the car smelled fabulous on the way home] and managed to expand my wardrobe just a wee bit more. I might turn into a shopper yet! I certainly would've added to my old wardrobe had I known it could be this much fun.
We came home to a delicious pot of homemade chicken noodle soup, watched a movie and played the wildly addictive game of "Pass the Pigs". It has to be the silliest game anywhere, the only thing you have to do is roll little rubber pigs like dice to score, but you can't stop playing. Then we ate dessert. For me, I ate dessert a few times. ::big grin::
It was my kind of day Tadpoles.
Thank you for lifting my spirits. :) ::skippyhappydance::