While on your computer.
After ingesting a healthy dose of medication.
A medication that is guaranteed to cause nausea.
Because when the urgency to
Ask me how I know this.
Go ahead. Ask. giggle
And you guys wonder where I have been?
In answer to all your kind queries and emails we are here, going through the motions, getting through our days as best we can. I thank you all so much for keeping in touch. It is so nice to know I have you, my Tadpole friends.
I am sorry that I haven't felt up to responding or posting. It has just become harder and harder to muster up enthusiasm for much of anything these days. It seems as tho' we are on the hamster wheel of health care in this country. I am not complaining - I am thrilled I have doctors that want to treat me. Isn't insurance a wonderful thing? :sarcasm drip: - but we are growing weary of the specialists, the extra special specialists and the super dooper specialists. Oh, and let us not forget the "God's gift" of specialists. Seems when you see one doctor you are referred to two more doctors who, in turn, refer you to even more doctors. During all of this appointment making [or should I say "attempting to make"?], the researching, the running around and the waiting [my god, the waiting!] we find that the important questions are not being answered. Or we are given vague responses and then passed along to the next doctor. It is frustrating to feel myself sliding backwards instead of feeling like I am moving forward. It is scaring me. And if it isn't enough that we are challenged by the sheer number of oncologists, not to mention the upcoming transplant contingency, we have to ask, couldn't they all be located in relatively the same area? I am not even asking for them to be in the same hospital or even the same city [they aren't] but is it really too much to have them in the same state? Seriously. I honestly think Maryland will be joining the queue soon.
Jeesh. I'm tired just writing all of that out. And I know it begins all again come Monday.
So that, my friends, is it in a nutshell. There are many bright sides, I assure you and I do say thank you many, many times throughout the day because I do have so much. I know this. Still, it doesn't mitigate the fact that life IS a struggle right now and I wonder if I have enough strength for this fight.
I truly hope you all have a wonderful week. Enjoy yourselves and keep up the shenanigans. I had a fun time catching up and can't wait to read more.
See you on the flipside Tadpoles. :)