I have so much to say to my family and my friends, here, on my blog.
I know these things will be one of the few lasting memories that I can give them. It won't be on paper, but will be in perpetuity on the net.
It is about all I have.
I have so little energy to do it.
It took me six hours yesterday, after I woke up, to make two phone calls. No kidding. It took me six hours to cough up and breath enough to talk without losing my breath. Anyone want to imagine what that is like?
When you think about the fact I have been out of our home only 9 times in 7 months [read that again and understand it] - is it any wonder I don't have anything to blog about? What do I have to say to my family that isn't a repeat of everything I do every day.
I swear Tadpoles I do try.
I still have so much I want to say. I share as much as I can with the kids and Pooldad [irl], but with this blog I want to have something permanent - something that they can look back on and say "Oh Yeah - there's Mom! Skippy! My Beloved!"
[okay, okay...he has never called me his "beloved" but a woman can hope.]
[oh just be quiet]
And as hard as I try...it isn't happening.
I have nothing.
And it just is not enough.