Saturday, October 10, 2009
Yes, Yes, No, Maybe and Yes
Haven't done one of these posts in a while. I have been out of the loop, not caring and basically being blaise about life. I figure what's the point when you look at the same four walls for 24/7? Not much I suppose. But this week brought me some relief and some heartache. [Anytime you guys are tired of the heartache just click over to Just Humor Me and laugh. Leave me alone. I am cranky. She isn't. Go. There.]
But LOOK! Y'all stayed [or came back - she's funny isn't she?]and now you are along for the ride. So, without further ado here is my 3 Yes[es], 1 No and a Maybe. hee.
Yes! - I am sitting here in a very pretty tye dyed t-shirt my Wallene made me at Amy's Memorial. I don't know if it is because my baby made it or I am thinking about Rich and Amy that it comforts me, but it is nice. Very nice. It is an incredibly ugly choice of colors [no offense Wallene, but it looks like Spot ate a frog and barfed. Seriously. Ever seen a dacshund digest a frog and have it come back? That. Puke green and yellow.] but I have to say it is nice to have. I pray for Rich.
Yes! - It is WARM here today. You tadpoles know the beauty in this for me. OMG. I have the back door open at 12 am and I get to tell the kidlets "HA! It is October and no A/C for YOU." [I feel like the A/C Nazi, but hey...I love warm] heeheee....I am so happy with this one fluke of weather in October. I am not going to bed until the temp goes down. I don't have to freeze my butt off with fake cold air [A/C] and they can't make me turn on the unit because it is October. Bwahahahaha. Okay. I am mean. But I am warm! bonus!
No! When I mentioned earlier that our divorce was a "paper" divorce I hoped y'all understood. It hurt to file it, hurt to know on "paper" we weren't married, but it hasn't gone through yet [Jan 10'] Well, since it didn't go through soon enough the reprecussions that I was trying to avoid are now here. Hear that thud? That is my life, pretty much crashing down around me and my daughters. But what are you going to do? The sun comes up tomorrow and life is to be lived another day. Even if I don't want to or don't have the means.
Maybe? Never had a maybe category before, but I added it because Wallene made me laugh today. She brought her interim home and handed it to me. Before I could open it she started to stutter, hem, haw [what is haw btw? Do you haw?] anyway I opened it. It looks lovely, but her best subject isn't looking ...well, like her best subject. I placed my finger on it and raised an eyebrow. [You Moms KNOW you have done this, shut up] and she simply said "Yes Mom. I didn't do my best and I know that if I try harder it won't be that on my report card." Hardass aren't I? Honestly and I get tired of saying it - we ask them to do their best - we don't care the grade as long as they DO.THEIR.BEST. Well she knew the question was coming and she knew she had been goofing off in this class. So, yeah - I gave birth to trained seals. Hand clap for me. She knows the drill. [And if you don't get the sarcasm, get off my blog.]
Yes! This is a little bittersweet. I don't talk about my side of the family much. In fact not at all. But today I talked to my sister and my Mom finally removed my brother from her home [with the help of my sis'] so she can spend her final days in peace. I heard my Mom's voice for the first time in quite a few months and cried. She was so sure back when that my brother was going to take care of her - and she threw sis' and I to the wayside, allowing him to abuse us and ultimately her too. When she discovered what a XXXXXXXXXX he was she finally allowed my sister to remove him. Thank goodness. I am so glad that she can die in peace.
I should probably add a No! to the last one - because it looks like I am going to be on a Greyhound to visit my Mom. Ever been on a Greyhound Bus for 9 hours? Those stories are too much. I swore I would never do it again, but since I can no longer drive those distances I will now have to suck it up and go ...on the bus...oh, you have no idea what travels the roadways between VA and SC on the Greyhound. Their slogan shouldn't be "Leave the driving to us" it is more apt to read "Leave the criminals to us."
I could curl your hair with those stories. hee.